I walked around my good intentions And found that there were none I blame my father for the wasted years We hardly talked I never thought I would forget this hate Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
If I don't make it Know that I've loved you all along Just like sunny days that We ignore because We're all dumb and jaded And I hope to God I figure out what's wrong
I walked around my room not thinking Just sinking in this box I blame myself for being too much Like somebody else I never thought I would just bend this way Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
If I don't make it Know that I've loved you all along Just like sunny days that <<<<<< We ignore because We're all dumb and jaded And I hope to God I figure out what's wrong
And I hope to God I figure out what's wrong I hope to God I figure out what's wrong If I don't make it Know that I've loved you all along Just like sunny days that We ignore because We're all dumb and jaded And I hope to God I figure out what's wrong
And If I don't make it Know that I've loved you all along Just like sunny days that We ignore because We're all dumb and jaded And I hope to God I figure out
I honestly don't know what I'm doing. This is why you don't make plans for the future. Shit happens. It just happens and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm lost once again.
I'll never forget that moment. Heart racing, out of breath, emotions surfacing and there it goes...tears pouring out.
There it is..... the moment my heart, our plans, and everything we ever talked about shattered. I swear you could've heard it. Might as well throw that frame with the picture of us against the wall.
I can't stop it from happening... change is constant. I am sitting here at 10:56 am on a Sunday morning... and the only place I can think of to go to in hopes of untangling my confusion and insecurities is Xanga. How sad.
I just know too much...ignorance is bliss. I hate being oblivious to something. I always have my antennas up ready to detect any change or anything out of the ordinary. But most often I am right about things.
This year sucked. Just waiting for the next one now... so hurry up.
"You know that romantic notion that all the garbage and the pain is actually really healing and beautiful and sort of poetic. Its not. Its just garbage and its pain. You know what’s better? Love. The day that you start thinking that love is overrated is the day that you’re wrong. Anything wrong with love and faith and belief is not having it."
Janet J was pretty damn good. Thanks Marilyn for taking me ! =)
Just when I get excited for fall clothing ( scarves, boots, cardigans etc.) I hear on the radio that the weather is supposed to be nice and sunny until Monday.. reaching up till 30 degrees on the weekend! What the heck is going on with our weather! Last night I had a dream that I had to get braces again. Now to most of you, you're probably thinking that its not a big deal but i've already gotten it twice before and I guess it was somewhat of a traumatic experience for me. Okay fine , thats a little pathetic....im sure there are certainly more important things for me to worry over ... even in my dreams.
Last week I was having some deeeeelicious roasted chicken at work when a friend/co-worker pointed out that I had come across a wishbone! My first one ever... and so we went about to pull it apart and i got the little nub which entitled me to make a wish! I made the same wish I always make. Still waiting ..and probably will always be making the sameeee wish.. whether its during shooting stars, when the clock hits 11:11, birthday candles and blowing an eyelash that has fallen off. yeah im silly.
